Not many people other than my close friends know that my mom is a cancer survivor. During her battle with cancer, I learned what it meant to truly plead with the Lord for the desires of your heart. As anybody that knows me can attest, I’m kind of a Momma’s boy. My mother is one of my best friends and I love her with all of my heart. The thought of losing her was unbearable to me. I couldn’t even think about it without crying. At first, I plead with God for a miracle. I wanted her cancer gone immediately. I didn’t want her to suffer through any more treatments than she had to. I couldn’t bear to see her so weak and in pain. I had the faith that she could be healed, too. I knew God could heal her, but He didn’t. God had other plans in store for me and my family.
After countless prayers for a miracle, I shifted to praying for acceptance and understanding. I prayed that I would be able to accept God’s will for my mother. Instead of begging for a miracle, I humbly prayed that my mother would be able to make through the day. I promised my Father in Heaven that if He let my mother live I would love her and care for her for as long as He blessed me with her presence. I promised that I would obey her and follow her counsel and advice, as I had sometimes struggled to do so before. I prayed for the patience and strength to be a support her and the rest of my family during this time of trial. I distinctly remember one night where I had been pouring my heart out to God wanting to feel at peace and to know that everything would be OK. Up until that point I hadn’t gotten any answer to my prayers. It was frustrating. At some points I doubted that God was there and that He cared. But I knew that I couldn’t stop praying and I couldn’t lose faith. That night I received my answer. After months and months of sorrow and pain and heartache, I finally felt peace. I knew that God had heard my prayers. He did not forsake me. He enveloped me with His love. I don’t remember ever feeling more at peace and more loved than I did at that very moment. I still didn’t know if my mom was going to live or not, but I knew that God loved me. I knew that no matter what happened He would be there to strengthen me and support me through anything.
A few months after that prayer, my mother was cancer free. God had answered my prayers along with countless others’. Since then I can’t remember a single argument I’ve had with my mom. I know I wasn’t as exactly obedient to her as I could have been but I tried to do the best I could. God blessed me to keep my best friend, and I will always be indebted to Him for doing so. Not a day goes by that I don’t thank Him for blessing me with the greatest mom anyone could ever ask for.
God loves us with a love that we cannot comprehend. I know He loves us. I know He cares for us and knows us each by name. We are His children. He will give us all of our righteous desires. Please, do not be discouraged if God does not answer your prayers right away. His timing is perfect and I promise you that whatever happens will be for the best. Looking back, if God would have healed my mother right away my faith wouldn’t have grown as much as it did. Through the pain and the suffering I learned to be strong and to know that God has a plan. Be at peace with God’s will. He will never forsake you through times of trial and He will always love you. This I know with all of my soul.